when i began on this journey i made a list of things i wanted to get out of it and achieve.
- to gain a confident voice of authority and allow myself to say with out guilt if i don't think something is working.
- to make a film i know i gave 100% to and something i can be proud of .
- gain experience of directing, to hopefully have one that will confirm this as what i want to do .
- to relax and enjoy making a film.
- to get my vision of the page.
I thought i would keep it simple but also challenging. Looking back on the list i am proud to think that i can check most things on it and i think from a reflective point of view writing a short goals list before the start of a film is a good thing to do as it gets you ready and also in a positive, 'this is what i am going to achieve' mind set.
writing directors notes:
The first thing i did as a director was go over my script several times just reading it at first them i took four different colours of highlighter and began to annotate, cross out add in and detail every nook and cranny of my script. this was a procedure that took about 3 days. it was fun to be so detailed and i think from this process i began to see my script more as a film that would be viewed rather than a script that would be read.
After the script was sorted we had to consider very seriously our actress because my script was going to hang completely on her performance. My dad called me one day and asked if i had considered kate dickie, i laughed and said you get me her number and ill call her. so the next day i sat nervously my phone calling kate dickie. This i have to comment on because calling someone you admire to talk about your own film is quite a weird experience, i never knew that when i brought red road in at the start of the year as one of my favourite films i would be calling its star at the end of the year to be in mine. After a few rings i got a very friendly , " hi there dickie residence" , it was kate dickies husband after saying my name it was clear that my dad had already been talking to people about me because it appeared he had been waiting for the call, after a while of chatting away i realised that kate was far to busy to get involved but it was a super first experience of putting myself out there and for the next time i can be allot more confident and prepared for calling people up, contacts or old friends who ever it may be.
auditions,
These were my first opportunity to direct actors, as i have had experience a few times before directing stage performance and being directed in on stage i had worked out a voice for myself and a way of speaking to the actors. i felt that my confidence levels were good for a first timer however if i were to do the auditions again i would have challenged the actors allot more, making them do more difficult scenes.
having a tech rechy and writing a ruff story board was what we did next , all in one day as well!
We decided for convenience and also because it fitted the script quite well to film the scenes in the flat in my flat. It was a bit small we thought when we had the rechy but good for sound and there was plugs a plenty to put lighting outside so because these things were ok we decided it worked and that the camera would have to fit! Looking back on this i think we were a little to eager to start filming and should have maybe thought out the camera situation a bit more, there were problems on the day with how to angle it because it didn't fit in the kitchen etc, taking this into consideration i still think my flat was the best place we could have found that was on location .
filming on set- day one. I cant thank Alistair from fourth year enough for coming along to be my directing mentor. The smallest things he pointed out to me were so helpful and as a beginner .It was really comforting to know there was someone there who actually knew what he was doing :)
We went for a quick 30 min chat to talk about how i had prepared and for him to give me some tips. I had written out some notes on each scene for the actress to read over the previous night and gave them to her in advance for the following day. when Alistair said it was about telling the actor how to feel in a scene rather than try and tell them how to act it really made sense and i was glad my notes were on the emotion rather that were to put there hands etc because these things i felt came out naturally on set rather than to be forced and look contrived by myself .
The lighting was really difficult the first day and as we learnt its rather tricky on the set to have a balance creatively between getting the performance and also making it look good on camera. i don't know if there is an answer to this one but for me personally i think as a team we coped better on the first day than the second simply because we were all fresh and exited about it and therefor working fast and to our best ability. even the slip up with sound didn't hold us back and we managed to re-shoot three scenes. leaving us all extremely tired but pleased with ourselves by the end of the day.
working as a team ( minus one person who just left and stood outside) we all pulled together and got the set taken down along with kit and lights put away which we did in record time! a very good start to filming i felt and i was very proud of everyone that day.
filming on location was a whole different kettle of fish :) This day was always going to be more difficult , we had a baby and several extras which gave us precise time constricts, i had also written overnight a new scene to be filmed at some point so we were faced with a massive and at some times un-comprehendable hill to climb up. With no Alistair on set today either it was all of us on our own . Each shot seemed to take forever to light however i'm so so glad that we took our time over this because the lighting was key to the mood of the flat scenes and it really does make the difference. really well done to Amelie for that!
Even thought this day was becoming more and more stressful as we got more and more behind i felt that we were all in our own stride a bit more, i had found a voice i was happy with and i new my script really well for these scenes so i was confident in what i was saying to the actress and because of this found her performance was really spot on.( even with a we baby )
After lunch we managed to claw our way back to the time schedule working extra fast and more comfortably together. When the extras had arrived we were just about ready for them . I felt myself dip a we bit in confidence for a second or two but i took a deep breath and then got on with it, i did find it hard to focus on the creative side of things when i had people trying to keep the scenes moving and carry on to the next thing but thats what you have to do and i think we found the balance without rushing anything to much. There was one extra in particular who was a bit hard to deal with which i was shocked by because i thought extras wouldn't be divas! however i was firmer and more deliberate in my directions i gave to him and i think because of that i left my directors journey on a good note because i had found a voice that was my own but was confident enough to be one that could mould itself to direct timid and overly confident people.
What a way to go out on i'm so pleased and thankful my script got picked and have learnt so much about myself but also about directing through this process.
peace